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Going to see dad in hospice in North Carolina for the last time.

11/6/2020

 
Everyone at some point in time experiences loss. I’ve been lucky, I have had no close personal loss until this fall as I witness my father in UNC Chapel Hill hospital receiving the best care modern medicine and caring nursing can offer. My dad is 92 and we worked together for 27 years when he then moved to NC.
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This was the irrigation pond reflecting the sunset the night before I left.
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Fog and smoke from wood stoves settled down upon a large field in Goldsboro, North Carolina on my way down to see dad, a spooky Civil War-looking scene. Ominous in a way. I went to college in Raleigh at NCSU, and back then the civil war was never far from my mind. It was all around us. The confederate flag was only associated with the war, not slavery (at all), and I can sympathize with confederate flag lovers when they say that it doesn’t necessarily prop up a slavery-lover’s racist angle. Only recently has that interpretation stretched into racism, although it is a very valid point. Now, when I see that flag proudly displayed, I’m immediately filled with hatred.
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I used to think I understood this flag, seen in Virginia on 95.
I have 13 hours of thinking to myself each time I go to see my parents in NC. Driving down to North Carolina has become routine, and this trip seemed to go quickly although I was in no hurry to get there in a strange sort of way. Part of me wanted to hurry, the other part slowed me down.
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When I came to empty roads that curved off into the woods, it seemed that it was illustrative of what awaited me, an uncertain unknown slurry of intense emotions.
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I brought a family heirloom that was held tightly for a long time, a welcome link with family long gone.
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I placed favorite flowers and ancient family items within sight on his window sill, with the sunlight highlighting the beauty.
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I left yesterday when it was nap time, and went to the beach to debrief myself. I watched pre-Hurricane waves roll in, and Pelicans zoom in line with each other just millimeters above the surf, an impressive feat of agility and skill, an effective predator of fish.
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The sun was swallowed up by the clouds before it reached the horizon, a hint that my time at the beach had come to an end.
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Peetee and I got up and stretched and left the beach to go somewhere for the night. This day will repeat itself over and over again until my reason for being here is no longer.
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Faint afternoon sunlight cast upon some roses on an abnormally warm November afternoon somewhere in Southport, North Carolina.
Post Script Tuesday, November 10th, 4:58pm:

​ Well, all things must, at some point, come to an end. My visit here is over now, time to return to Connecticut. It’s going to be a sorrowful drive, that’s for sure.
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When I got back to Trumbull, I saw this tree whose dropped leaves made me think of the end of my dad's life. He lived a very long life and so has this tree which gets to cycle through the ages until mankind disturbs it in some way.
I was driving home through a hurricane the day after dad died, and a song came on that made me pull over. Between the lashing of the storm on the windshield, the annoying rhythm of the rental car’s cheap windshield wipers, and the mist in my eyes, I couldn’t see much. I was in no particular hurry yet wanted to get home, the same conflict I felt on the way down.

Funny it was then, that when the song ended, so did the worst of the rain. I pulled myself together and put the car in drive and headed home.

Although this song’s words don’t exactly match my experience, it matters not.

Loss of someone in your life stings, no matter how it happens.
Catherine (Madar) Topar
11/29/2020 10:12:45 pm

I just sat down to catch up on your blog entries this evening. Words can't express how incredibly sorry I am for your heartbreaking loss, David. You and your family were kind enough to welcome me back to a job at Wakeman's Garden Center after graduating college during the economic recession of the early 90's. It has been exactly 30 years since I've seen your father. I was off to start my first corporate job, less than a year after a soft landing back into Wakeman's greenhouse at age 22.
I can't recall much detail about my experiences thirty plus years ago, but when I think about working at Wakeman's (through high school and beyond) it always makes me smile. Here's what I remember about your dad...
Mr. B was tall & thin, handsome, well-dressed and always a gentleman. He was smart, had a soft laugh and a quick, intelligent sense of humor that could, at times, catch you off guard. Most of all, I remember that Mr. B. was a caring cultivator of anything born of this earth's soil.
As teenagers, we would poke fun at Mr. B.'s propensity to find some pitiful plant at the garden center, struggling to thrive among it's companions, or perhaps overlooked - accidentally pushed to the back of a display to suffer unintended neglect and abandonment. Once Mr. B. secured the victim, he pinched back the decaying leaves, nourished the soil, gave it a healthy drink, and a pep talk. The coddled patient would be placed in a new home among its peers to bask in the sunlight and warmth of the greenhouse.
I truly have no idea if any of the invalid plants ever resurrected and lived out their full & glorious lives, nor do I have any recollection of being the slightest bit interested in the fate of our photosynthesized friends during my teenage years. None of that is relevant to my memory. However, now that I reflect on the meaning behind those actions, perhaps it is a testament to Mr. B.'s character. His passion, benevolence and desire to make the world a better place for his family, his garden center and for us all... one healthy green leaf at a time.
David, you are fortunate than most folks I know. It may be difficult to look beyond your present grief, but you have inherited your father's enthusiasm for all things living, kindness, wonderment and reverence for this rock we call home and insistence to bring truth and integrity to all that you do.
I don't know much about horticulture, but one thing I do know for certain... apple trees don't make lemons.


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